RMTSK

Kim

I was born and grew up in China. I was very shy and quiet during my childhood. I don't know why I disliked "boy" things as I got older. I did not realize that my personality was somewhat different from other boys until I encountered my female side for the first time. This happened when my parents forced me to try on a girl's shirt intended as a gift for a friend's daughter.

Since then, it became a fantasy for me to wear female apparel and to enjoy my female side secretly. Just like most other CD/TGs, I became sexual subjugated to it somehow. It was great fun and high adventure to explore the female world as a teenager. However, because of my ignorance of gender issues, my early CD experience was full of confusion, shame, and guilt.

When I went to college, I attempted to get rid of this "freaky" habit, and tried to become a normal guy. I went to the gym to build muscle and enhance my masculine side. Unfortunately, I found that I could never get rid of this desire no matter how hard I tried. It was irresistible.

I did research about my gender confusion in an attempt to explore and understand my private nature. I found explanations from various sources and began to realize that cross dressing, while a form of social dysfunction, is not a form of mental illness, but related to various factors like genetics. China is a very conservative country and information about transgender issues is extremely limited.

After college in China I came to the US to pursue an M.S. degree. Graduate school gave me access to the Internet and, to my surprise, I found that there are a lot of CD/TV/TG people. For the first time in my life I felt that I was not alone in the world. I began to contact other TG friends by email to get tips from them, and I built my web site (http://www.geocities.com/kimstone99/) to get to know more of the other TGs. I began to pay much more attention to my diet and skin care just as most GGs do. I bought female apparel from on-line Internet shops and in person. I took some pictures with my digital camera and put them on my web site. Due to my poor photographic skill and lighting equipment, I could not get the quality of the glamour pictures as done in a studio by a professional photographer. However, I received a lot of email from other sister and CD admirers who appreciated my pictures. I really appreciate their support and good suggestions and feel very cheerful about it.

After graduation from the university, I got a job offer in Denver, accepted it, and moved here. I began to feel that dressing at home wasn't exciting enough. I wanted to go out in public for the challenge and achievement. As a new CD, the thought of appearing in public for the first time was both frightening and exciting. A TG friend suggested that I contact the Denver Tri-Ess chapter, a branch of a national and safe TG support group. I emailed the group and got a response from SueAnne, a very nice and active member of Tri-Ess, the First Lady of the current TSK - Tri-Ess. At her direction, I met her in drab at BJ's, a TG-friendly bar where she did a terrific show. With her encouragement, I finally made it there en femme the next weekend.

Since them, I have made a lot of TG friends and attend many activities of our group, even with my wife Megan. I've really enjoyed so many great experiences since I became a Tri-Ess member, and later the Treasurer of TSK.